Artist: A Maree
Drawing it Out is, as the title suggests, about drawing out raw, unapologetic truths in response to identity, memories, and time surrounding the complex healing processes of mental health. It is about drawing out the suppressed voice and bringing forth what was once private into the public space.
Drawing it Out focuses on the supportive and creative processes rather than the usual polished outcome. The process is based on producing automatic blind self-portraits drawings in response to residual memories triggered by sensory stimuli. The triggers are most likely to occur when my space is invaded by certain sounds or images that prompt memories of a past trauma. The triggers can either appear momentarily or linger. I do not have control over how long a memory will last. For authenticity, I needed to respond with immediacy and drawing allows for this immediacy to occur.
Drawing it out reveals an unfiltered truth that is situated between consciousness and abstraction. Like the automatic writers and surrealist artists of the early 20th century, Drawing it Out reject’s aestheticism and reflects the reality of the internal manifestations of my mind. Early in development, I understood that my visual perception would have sabotaged my efforts and portrayed something of beauty. Something I thought the world would want to see rather than what needed to be seen. Unlike the pioneers of the surrealist movement who were about the unconscious mind, my memories were never suppressed; rather, my voice was.
When participating in automatic blind self-portrait drawing, I am not completely void of sight, as one does not need eyes to see the truth. I speak my truth through haptic perception (to see through touch). Touch is connected to all the senses and has a way of sharing the truth whether are willing to accept its honesty or not. My past works have been this transformative process, a way of making sense of what happened and desire to educate and empower myself. Drawing it out provided me with an opportunity to speak my truth during a comforted state of self-awareness. Awareness of how I was situated within my space, as well as the drawing space. I would feel the texture of the drawing tool and the surface below me. Each movement, responding to the tactile and kinaesthetic messages, presented in a consistent feedback loop of absolute truth.
Sarah Pirrie and Ian Hance